How does it feel to be older? Well, yesterday was my birthday (originally written on the 25th of May 2021), where I finally closed my late twenties journey and took some baby steps to the new age. It is amazing when you trace back and realize how fast time flies when you are growing older. I remember being so excited for my birthday when I was seven years old, waiting since the previous month for ‘the’ day. Every day was a new day and it felt so slow. Time was perceived differently by the little me.
Entering 20 was divided into different categories and flavours. Ooh boy, ain’t the early 20s lit? One is at the beginning of tasting adult life, but yet the feeling stays on the verge as a teeny. Then the mid 20s, in which the term ‘middle life crisis’ became familiar, where rerouting, tracing back and contemplating ways of life occurred. I wonder how many people have asked themselves these questions ‘’What have I been doing with my life?’’ or expressing their bits of regrets, ‘’I should or (in some cases) shouldn’t have done…’’ in this phase.
Here comes the last part, the late 20s, where things seem to be stabler than before. The phrase – You do the best and the Universe does the rest, is understandably relatable. It is doable to deal with how things are just the way they are. And for me personally, I have learned to accept that some decisions have the impacts that one can’t fix, or some things (usually the good ones) take a bit longer time, and some things are there, just because.
It wouldn’t break me anymore like it did back then as I was notified to live with glasses for the rest of my life because my myopia is too high, or that learning German takes time and it’s okay to feel tired sometimes, or that moving abroad isn’t as romantic as I thought it would be on the first place. For the first time in my life, I celebrate mindfully that I am exactly where I am supposed to be, and it is relieving. Something that me in my early and mid 20s back then would have never understood let alone accepted.
A phone call from my brother yesterday was a warm ending to my birthday. We discussed this transition phase. He asked me how I perceive my life since I am older now. And it made me realize one thing, that maybe I am ‘calmer and un-wild’ (not like the younger me), because I have somewhat achieved what I dreamed. It has always been my dream to see the other parts of the world and I have been living that dream. It has been a colourful and life learning experience, even until today, and I eventually learn how to adjust and live with it.
For the first time in my life, I celebrated my birthday mindfully. My best friend always says God is good, and in addition how important it is to count your blessings. I reflected on my growth journey yesterday, calling back my memories starting from how young I was up until this day. Ooh my, isn’t she right. Since life itself is already a blessing, every day that you get the chance to live should be cherished and appreciated. I am glad that I am alive, that I am given the opportunity to grow as the time goes by. As gratitude, it makes sense to have a personal project on how to make the world a better place starting from self, doesn’t it?
Cheers to the new age and I wish happy birthday to you whom celebrate as well ♡
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